I’m on the mend.
Seriously I am getting better, I’ve eaten 3 meals today! It’s been a long time since I have eaten so much in one day. I was merely surviving on one meal (lunch) per day since Friday. Haven’t cried once today (well done Amy). I have done laundry and have changed bed sheets. I am getting better, slowly getting better.
I’m going to London tomorrow and will spend a night there. I really want to hear what Jan has to say about it all (but deep down I know what he will say – he’s not the one, move on, blah blah blah). But I really need to hear him to say this, like a final nail in the coffin, in order for me to move on.
I’m going to something crazy and will go and check out his travelodge tomorrow. Plus I will eat at the Nando’s he ordered his food from. I have missed him a lot, wondering if he had a proper meal tonight (he doesn’t need to lose weight ffs), whether he is asleep or still working.
Give it time I say to myself. Time will do wonders and the next thing I know is that I have moved on gracefully.
Night night and sweet dreams Xxx
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