Monday 28th October

I really didn’t want to go into work today…. I feel so crappy.

I still miss him a lot, I mean a lot.

I am resorted in doing the same thing as the Dr from Descendants of the Sun is doing 😭. Shame I don’t have access to any x-ray 😭.

I have booked the massage course as promised before, not that it would change anything, but I just want to follow through what I promised before. Stupid way of wasting £39 I suppose 🙄.

I think I need to phone someone later as I genuinely feel suicidal 🙄. People at work is so kind and nice to me, but I am not up for anything today. I just want to escape the world by sleeping.