Friday 25th October

It’s a sad day today.

Typical rain/windy/dark British weather.

I really miss Tom.

I miss his hugs, I miss his kisses, his laugh, cheeky jokes. I miss running my fingers through his hair, I miss sitting on his couch and watching stand up comedy on TV.

I miss falling asleep in his arm.

I miss his affectionate kiss on my forehead when I’m about to fall asleep and the loving whisper of G’night.

I really hate myself for rocking the boat.

Maybe, just maybe, I have made the worst decision in my life.

I really hate myself.

I really do.