Moving in

So I went over to Matts house yesterday to help build the wardrobe. Got a birthday present from him…….it’s Overcooked 😍 and a Card with Chris Evans on, with Harry Birrdday inside it 🙈 So racist 😒🤣

Oh and breaking news, found out he has met a Chinese girl called Natasha from Shanghai. Studying to become an architect, currently doing an architecture Masters in Manchester. Dad is a doctor and I don’t know what her mum does for a living but apparently she is very rich. Been in Holland for a few years and have also stayed in Paris for another few years. Same age as me but most importantly she is roughly the same size as me….so what the fuck is all this petite size 8 Malarkey about?! He described her as very clever…..honest to God he needs to sort out how he classify someone as being clever because to me studying architecture is nothing clever at all. You just follow instructions. But most importantly it really didn’t bother me 🤔 So I told my good friend Alice about it all but she clearly weren’t interested…..I still haven’t told her about moving into Matt’s house 🙈. she clearly said to me don’t move into his house because it’s a trap and she doesn’t want to see me falling into this trap. She made a very good point actually because the reason why he’s renting it out so cheaply to me is because he knows I’m poor and he’s playing a game. But I don’t agree with her because I do feel like this is going to be a pure friendship and nothing else. Most importantly I feel the weight has been lifted off my shoulder and I am moving on. I am much happier in myself and even today Daniel have said again that I’m happier and back to my normal self. So moving in is not such a bad deal I don’t think 🤔. But I haven’t told anyone about this and I do worry about keeping such a big secret from everyone. Sometimes I feel like I’m 33 I’m old enough to make decisions and yet I have to seek approval from everyone around me. I think I’m doing the right thing, at least for the short term anyway because I really really am sick and tired of living in hospital accommodation. It is approaching two years now and I think I am getting more depressed the longer I stay here. Reasons why I have recently perked up is because a) I just came back from Hong Kong and b) I can see light at the end of the tunnel which is moving out of the accommodation.